"7By faith Noah, being warned by God concerning events as yet unseen, in reverent fear constructed an ark for the saving of his household." - Hebrews 11
I know I have talked a lot of my love-hate relationship with this blog. But I have come to realize that it's another source of accountability during this journey. And we all know most of our takes on accountability. It's not always welcomed with ease, but it is recognized as a necessity. LOVE-HATE epitomized.
With that said, this post comes out of humble recognition for my need of accountability. I write to you, friends and family, with the utmost transparency. I have been at a crossroads ever since reaching England. Fighting the urge to become complacent with my surroundings, I often find myself being pulled in two different directions. The comfortable road or the challenging one. After several stretching months of ministry the comfortable road of complacency is hard to resist. I must admit there have been days where I have weakened to this temptation. But God is ever present and continually pushing me to face my challenges. He has been the only constant in my journey. Ever since that day last May when I decided to take this trip, He has been the one pushing me forward. The reverent fear that Noah experienced in the opening verse, I experienced that day on the beach. As I sat on the sand, watching the sun set, I knew out of reverence for my God that I was to travel abroad.
It is interesting that it was out of my reverence for God that pushed me to my decision. I don't think my love for him was strong enough to serve as my motivation. God had to push me to fear Him; to revere His sovereignty. But that reverence brought even more love for my God, my Provider, my Leader. Through reverent fear Noah saved his household. My life of complacency was saved in equal manner. This is my reminder. This is my kick in the pants.
I know I have talked a lot of my love-hate relationship with this blog. But I have come to realize that it's another source of accountability during this journey. And we all know most of our takes on accountability. It's not always welcomed with ease, but it is recognized as a necessity. LOVE-HATE epitomized.
With that said, this post comes out of humble recognition for my need of accountability. I write to you, friends and family, with the utmost transparency. I have been at a crossroads ever since reaching England. Fighting the urge to become complacent with my surroundings, I often find myself being pulled in two different directions. The comfortable road or the challenging one. After several stretching months of ministry the comfortable road of complacency is hard to resist. I must admit there have been days where I have weakened to this temptation. But God is ever present and continually pushing me to face my challenges. He has been the only constant in my journey. Ever since that day last May when I decided to take this trip, He has been the one pushing me forward. The reverent fear that Noah experienced in the opening verse, I experienced that day on the beach. As I sat on the sand, watching the sun set, I knew out of reverence for my God that I was to travel abroad.
It is interesting that it was out of my reverence for God that pushed me to my decision. I don't think my love for him was strong enough to serve as my motivation. God had to push me to fear Him; to revere His sovereignty. But that reverence brought even more love for my God, my Provider, my Leader. Through reverent fear Noah saved his household. My life of complacency was saved in equal manner. This is my reminder. This is my kick in the pants.
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